Legal (Pt 11)

"That's a nice view. You're quite good at this, aren't ya?" Logan dok belek camera aku dari tadi. 

Walaupun dalam kepanasan cuaca Malaysia ni, aku tgk Logan tetap cool dengan gaya dia; seluar jeans yg separuh pudar, tshirt plain colour biru gelap, sunglasses sangkut between his collar bones.

So lepas 2 hari duduk penang, kitorg fly ke kuala lumpur because I heard so much about it. Alang2 dah ada kat Malaysia aku nak explore sampai lebam.

"Yeah... it's kinda my thing. Sometimes I sell them. Sometimes I keep some of them in my book, and do some notes."

"Notes?" Logan tgk aku dengan dia punya tell-me-more expression.

"Mhmm. When I go travelling, there's a lot of accidents that can happen. They're like footsteps of where I had been and what I've gone through. Most of em are beautifully plotted in my life journey, but some... they just leave scars."I start remembering those times when I travel here and there. So much that had happened. So much I've accomplished. That made me who I am right now.

"You're very interesting. Whatever you do that makes you happy, please, don't ever stop." He holds my hand and stare me right through my eyes as if he knows, as if he understands. Maybe he does?

"Thanks." I almost shed my tears. Then I blink to stop myself from tearing apart. "I'm sorry. I'm being ridiculous. Ugh."

Logan tak cakap apa. He just gives me a warm smile.

Malam tu aku penat sangat. Shopping sana shopping sini. Dok ingat Nate dgn Beth kat new york. 

Nasib baik kat KL ni aku dapat bilik suite yang ada dua katil. Takdelah aku nak rasa awkward dengan Logan lagi sekali. Haihh. Bila teringat Logan, aku jadi takut. I know, I've fallen for him. Tapi aku rasa aku dah serik. I'm tired of relationships that doesn't last long. The longest relationship I've had with a guy is 7 months. And we broke up 2 years ago. 

Why is it so hard?

"Raisya?" Aku terus pusing kepala aku kat arah Logan. Muka dia pucat habis bila dia nampak muka aku. Alamak. Kenapa ni? Ada hantu ke belakang aku?!

"Are you crying?" Logan tanya dengan nada terkejut. Hah?! Aku nangis ke?! Bila masa air mata aku terkeluar?!

"What? Uhm. No. No, i wasn't crying. I was just... watching this movie." Serentak aku dengan Logan tengok tv kat depan katil aku. Hadehhh.

"You cried watching The Simpsons?" 

"Errrr.... it was hilarious." Aku cuba sedaya upaya bagi alasan.

Logan senyum. Walaupun dia pakai sweatpants dengan tshirt je, hot gila. Tiba2 dia jalan ke arah aku dengan senyuman menggodanya. 

"You know... I'm a good listener. You can spill your sorrow and share it with me. I'll not judge. I promise."

Dan... aku pun mula bercerita.